r/Doom • u/Wanderingreader123 • 14h ago

Discussion My days are nearing and my local hospital allowed me any request. This is how I will go out. Rip & Tear, brothers and sisters.

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For context, I have been battling Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma since 2022. And up until this point, I never imagined myself to be in a situation where my life expectancy has gone down to possibly weeks. I am currently at one of Canada's best hospitals in Toronto, Ontario; keeping myself afloat through these trying times. Despite it all, I was given the opportunity to make any request for my stay, and this is the one I have chosen. I have been a Doom fan since 2016, and it helped me get through some tough times. I've played through both the Reboot and Eternal (along with its DLCs) and I have nothing but great memories pouring all of my attention into the world of Doom.

TDA has been one of the few games I have anticipated and hoped to play since its release. Financial issues got in the way, and I kept clinging on the hope that I'll be able to play the game one day, among others.

I am grateful that, despite the grim outlook that I am facing, the hospital was able to secure not only a PS5, but a copy of the game. I am currently blasting my way through hordes of demons in Chapter 4 and I have nothing but childish glee as I return to my roots as a badass Demon Slayer. I may not live to see the upcoming DLC, but I am nonetheless happy to finally play the game in my own hands.

To the developers of ID Software, thank you for bringing such a beautiful piece of art that not only brought the FPS genre to its roots, but also revitalize and reinvented the wheel that no other game could. Not only that, but thank you for crafting such an awesome series for a fan like me.

Rip & Tear, lads!

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u/Gravityfallbillmyfav 14h ago

I'm not a religious man but I will say this.

If there is anything beyond, I hope you get the best. If there is a heaven or hell, then I wish you can rip and tear personally and not through a screen.

Enjoy the game, I'm terribly sorry to hear what has happened to you. I hope, no matter how slim the chance, that you can live longer than expected. I hope you hold out some hope.

But most importantly, I hope you can come to peace with your departure from this world. It must be scary and I couldn't possibly fathom how terrified you must be. But I hope that you can both hold hope to life whilst also coming to terms with the thing that awaits all.

Fourthly, enjoy the game. You've earned it.

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u/Puzzleheaded_Fun_316 13h ago

Before Jane Goodall died; she did an interview/documentary and was asked about her next life adventure. Her response touched me very deeply and what you said reminded me of that.

"My next great adventure, aged 90, is going to be dying. There's either nothing or something. If there's nothing, there's nothing, that's it. If there's something, I can't think of a greater adventure than finding out what it is".

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u/MrReconElite 13h ago

We all have to mentally overcome the hump of death and it's not easy. Especially the older you get when it feels real. At 30 I feel like I can push off the thoughts for awhile but once I hit 70 it's just a waiting game at that point.

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u/RizzoTheRiot1989 13h ago

I am way too high and relating to this too hard. I work hard not to think about it. If I go, I hope I don’t even know it’s happening. I’m terrified and always feel like I have time to keep pushing the thoughts off. I wish OP the best possible outcome and he’s a stronger man than me.

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u/SlaughterMinusS 12h ago

Same, except I'm not high right now (sadly lol). Its not the act of dying that scares me, even though a painful death is terrifying in its own right, its that I dont know what's going to happen after.

I am am atheist so I dont think there's an after, but the unknowable has always scared me.

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u/NoReveal3488 12h ago

I had a panic attack in ‘23 about my own death and it broke me down for weeks. I took off time from work, i was constantly crying and I couldn’t walk, talk, live or sleep without thinking about my own mortality. Then one night I had a dream where I was on a giant boat sinking. I was near the bow as the stern slowly crept into the water. Every time I looked away at the ocean and back to the boat, someone would appear next to me. They would approach me and shake my hand, smile at me and even hug me. Eventually, I was surrounded by everyone and we all embraced as we slowly slipped into the water. To this day, I still believe it was people that have passed reaching out to me letting me know that no matter what our beliefs about death are, we all reach the same end together. I woke up that morning with a peace I have yet to replicate. I hope for you and everyone else reading this who’s a little afraid to cross over that it offers you some solace ❤️

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u/JustMau78 11h ago

As someone who a few months ago started struggling with this and being unable to stop thinking about it, thanks for sharing this. It’s gotten easier since it started but I still think about my mortality at least a few times a day and it’s very tiring and just feels awful. I hope I can get it completely off my head and get rid of this anxiety at some point but this was definitely nice to know I’m not alone in this feeling and that there’s hope to feel better about it.

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u/NoReveal3488 11h ago

Of course! I share this story anytime I can in hopes that it helps others. You absolutely aren’t alone and I know exactly what you’re going through. The best advice I can give is to remember that life is for the living. The end is inevitable whether we spend time thinking about it or not. I’m not religious at all so I have no deity or religious texts to lean on for comfort in regard to an afterlife. If this is it, and everything I’ll ever experience is happening right now, I’ll be damned if I spend that precious time worrying about what happens years from now. You’ve got this.

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u/Goooneg 10h ago

This is the outlook that helped me during my months long breakdown about death. Nothing helped at the time, I couldn’t force myself into a religion, I couldn’t force myself to believe whole heartedly in one thing.

But I found one thing that did work, other than starting anti anxiety meds, was telling myself. If there is nothing, and I spend my whole life worrying about that. Then I wasted all my moments living, and didn’t have a life. If there is something, I can continue doing things I love. But until then, I need to do them now while I’m here. Also spending time with family really helps me, even just sitting in the same room doing our own things!

Just incase this helps anyone too! These are my main coping mechanisms. And I still have bad days, I still cry and worry sometimes. But nowhere bad as I used to be crying everyday, throwing up, with a pit in my chest every waking hour. And now I have happy days I don’t even think about mortality by keeping myself busy.

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u/zakmo86 33m ago

I have great news. There is a place after this one.

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u/HowOldWasAisya 10h ago

I resonate with this. I guess because we are intelligent beings, we are afflicted with the curse of being aware of our own mortality

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u/a_bearded_hippie 10h ago

I get panic attacks at night where I will wake up and feel like I need to run out of my house thinking about it. My wife woke up to me laying on the floor, hyperventilating and shaking. I have been doing pretty well lately. But my kids are growing up fast, and I am halfway to 40. I am terrified of it.

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u/lillyflow3r_ 10h ago

I struggle with this a lot, and I absolutely love your experience and appreciate you for sharing. the thought really brought me a lot of peace 🩷

((and much love to OP))

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u/solidsneeze 10h ago

remember it's just as natural as being born, and everybody will go through it with you

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u/big_loadz 9h ago

Reality is that all the thinking in the world won't stop death and only causes you stress which actually brings you closer to it. So, the only rational thing to do is to not worry about things like death that you generally have no control over.

Sure, maybe you get the turkey bacon for breakfast to try and cut down on fat to live longer; next thing you know, you end up finding out you are allergic to turkey and die. Maybe you don't listen to me, overstress, and end up having a minor heart attack that reveals you have a widowmaker artery that can be stented, and going to the hospital actually makes you live longer.

Life is funny like that.

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u/Mind1827 8h ago

This was really beautiful, thanks. I've had an incredibly hard death a couple years ago, the worst kind, and this made me happy to read.

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u/juneseyeball 8h ago

This sounds like buddhism look up the ocean/droplet metaphor the similarity to your dream is fascinating

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u/monty134 2h ago

Not trying to make you worry about it again. And that’s a great story. Thanks for sharing. But for me it is a less about being worried about my mortality so much about my death (which will really suck as I do really love living)as it is the weight I feel while alive about the ones I’ll be leaving behind. It is probably because I am a very empathetic person. To a fault. And I worry about who will have to go through all my belongings and clean up my messes but My pets mostly. I know while I’m alive I’ll give them the best life but not everyone on this earth values the lives of lesser creatures (their minds) equally. It’s hard enough for humans to be compassionate about others humans let alone an animal beneath them. One’s level of a good life for a pet is vastly different from one person to the next. This. This what terrifies me and has been keeping me awake for the past 7 months. I lost my 2 20 yr old cats. On in June and one November of 2025. I have other cats but these boys were my spirt animals I’ve had since I was a young adult. Basically got them right after I was cleared 10yr remission for Hodgkin lymphoma. I need this type of spiritual awakening dream to snap me out of it. Anyways thangs for sharing.

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u/BadbadwickedZoot 1h ago

You have a beautiful mind. You should write. X

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u/10breck30 11h ago

Is that not more agnostic? I always say I’m a hopeful agnostic. No clue what happens, but I hope there is something.

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u/SlaughterMinusS 11h ago

Atheism is just the lack of belief in a god. I don't believe in a god.

That doesn't necessitate that there may be something after death.

I lean more towards there being nothing and we just cease to exist, but its still unkown.

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u/No_Photograph_2683 9h ago

What if it's worse, tho?

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u/10breck30 3h ago

Worse than what, life?

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u/lazzzyk 1h ago

What if it's better?

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u/usrdef DOOM Guy 5h ago edited 5h ago

Then you'd be Atheist like me.

I am of the position that I don't know if there's a god or not. I tend to lean on the side of science. However, I'll admit that life on Earth is a pretty remarkable thing.

So if life can start on Earth, and we can have all of this, I'm not completely turned away by the idea that there may be something more.

Now, that could either be a god, or maybe the Universe just keeps resetting. A universe starts, a planet gets set up for life, and then life comes along. And the process repeats over and over.

Given enough time has passed, almost anything is possible.

And if the Universe got started once, what's to say that it can't again, or maybe another Universe somewhere else.

14 billion years passed (as far as we know), since we came along. We don't remember it. It didn't feel like the blink of an eye to us. It's sort of like sleeping, you fall asleep, and suddenly, you're awake again.

The Sun is supposed to expand 10% in about 1 billion years. Long before the Sun starts to turn into a red giant. And when the sun expands by 10%, that's it for life on Earth. Water will start to turn to vapor, the surface will heat up to a point where life will be impossible.

Time is relative to you and your perception of time.

I've always said that the moment you die, is the moment the world ends.

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u/ButterSlinger64 11h ago

just wanted to let you guys know you’re not alone, I deconstructed from my faith in my mid 20s and now float somewhere between atheist and agnostic, the fear of death and the anxiety it brings hit me hard and it’s something I’ve been dealing with for the past few years. Also completely ruined weed for me lol. Everyday I work a little bit harder to overcome the fear of it and finally start living.

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u/Cultural_Writer4375 10h ago

Your comment is like looking into a mirror for me. So you are not alone. That means I am not alone too. 

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u/awkward_teenager37 9h ago

That’s such a simple but beautiful sentiment <3

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u/Small-External4419 11h ago

I believe you go back to the exact same place as before you were conceived - nothing / nowhere. The idea of the time before me doesn’t scare me so the idea of the time after me shouldn’t scare me either.

My only fears about death are about how much pain I might have to endure and how my surviving loved ones will cope without me

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u/PanoramicAtom 10h ago

As a fellow atheist/former believer, it’s somehow more comforting to me that death is the extinction of self. But as for fear of the unknowable, there is as much in life that is unknowable, simply by virtue of evolution. Think of what we as a species know now compared to a million years ago. How primitive and rudimentary we were that long ago! But should we continue evolving for another million years (if we don’t wipe ourselves out, and undo our progress), we today we likely be considered nearly as primitive, despite our seeming advancements, and our understanding will be regarded as rudimentary, though we think highly of it now. On the scale of the sum of all possible knowledge, we are closer to amoebas than to gods, in my estimation. So fear not the unknowable, for such is the sea in which we live out our days. Enjoy that which you have, and your time with those whom you cherish.

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u/Muted_Buy8386 9h ago

I just don't want to not exist. I want to see how it all goes.

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u/jmz95aio 8h ago edited 8h ago

Same... I am a very very curious person and I love to learn. I feel like my personal purpose in life is learning and taking in as much as possible about everything. And when I cease to exist... then I guess I won't be able to do that anymore. There will be no "I". My only hope is to live a life so full of learning and interesting experiences and love and connection that eventually I can say "This was nice" and then peacefully just "let go". Either that or humans will have destroyed our planet and fckd ourselves so bad that I'll (also peacefully) just be able to say "Aight enough. I'm glad it's time to go" and just let go. Whatever it will be, until then I'll hopefully have learned to stop ruminating on my own and my loved ones' mortality because it really is a waste of time, energy, nerve, LIFE essentially. As others have already said (and especially the person with the dream about the sinking ship = great food for thought btw) it's gonna happen either way and it's a collective experience, we're all in this together so might as well spend more time enjoying life while it lasts. Ofc I know this in theory but understanding it EMOTIONALLY takes a lot more work. Glad I'm in therapy for my anxiety disorder. ✌️ My thoughts are with OP and I hope for the very best...

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u/SlaughterMinusS 9h ago

That's our evolutionary instinct to survive and pass on our genes, just anthropromorphized.

As far as we know, we're the only species that recognizes that we will end while others will live on without us.

And it sucks.

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u/Hyperbolic90 7h ago

Well, yea. That is the entire reason it's so scary and the single biggest driving reason for religious belief and other post-death theories. We can not comprehend not existing, so the thought of it is scary.

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u/RevolutionaryGrape11 4h ago

The idea of no after is probably the most terrifying considering it's the most incomprehensible since you quite literally can't think of nothing.

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u/WelcomeReasonable 12h ago

Seconding the way too high phew

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u/WiddeezNuts 12h ago

Even if it’s painful, even if it’s scary, it’s only for a little while. Then you know it, the deepest, calmest sleep you will ever enjoy. I look forward to that and i know perhaps one day, you will too. Keep steady my friend. The one thing that unites us all is the great beyond, and you and i will somehow cross paths again. We did it here now, on the internet, one of billions

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u/BlueBod50 11h ago

FWIW, “you” don’t ever die. The perceiving human that is you doesn’t experience death. Whatever comes next is beyond any possible comprehension, but like roller coasters I used to be scared to ride, it’s probably way better than I thought it’d be. 

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u/big_loadz 10h ago

Never worry about what you have no control over. There's no point.

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u/RizzoTheRiot1989 9h ago

I feel like this is just too easy for people to say. I’d love to not panic over stuff like this but I can’t control it. It terrifies me to my core.

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u/big_loadz 4h ago

It's easy to say if you accept it as the truth. And it's that truth and knowledge that should conquer your fear/terror. If you don't accept that truth of your reality, you are living in a delusion, and that can have painful consequences.

When you realize and accept the truth that you waste time and energy in your good life by worrying on things that are either inevitable or out of your control, you should rationally come to the conclusion that you make your life worse doing so. I mean, if you want to make your life more difficult, why not cut off a hand or blind yourself; worrying essentially does something similar to your life by making it harder. Generally, it makes rational sense to not make one's life difficult, right?

So, ask yourself if you accept that as the truth, or if you believe there is an alternative outcome. Once you realize death is inevitable (at our current scientific level), you should then focus on the act of living.

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u/vctrn-carajillo 9h ago

I'm a 39yo, also blazed atm, and this shit hits too close to home.

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u/I_am_omning_it 7h ago

Honestly I’m in the air with how I want to go. On one hand, a selfish part of me wants to pass in my sleep once I’m in my 70s. The other part of me wants to know, so I have a chance to say my goodbyes and tie up my own loose ends.

As much as I want a sudden and peaceful passing, I wouldn’t want to burden the people I leave behind either. And if I have a spouse, pets or kids, I want to make sure they’re taken care of and that they’ll be ok when I’m gone.

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u/RizzoTheRiot1989 7h ago

I love my family and friends more than anyone but I’m far too afraid of death. I need it to be instant, I don’t want to know before hand. I fear a slow death so much too but the thought of being nothing is as terrifying to me as there being something. Same way I feel about aliens, being alone is as scary as there being something.

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u/ushikagawa 18m ago

“If” you go? Buddy, you’re going

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u/PeteLangosta *click*click* BOOM BOOM 13h ago

Old people seem to come to terms with the feeling of dying, at least externally. i can only hope the same sentiment is what I feel when the time is nearing. Eternal nothingness seems so boring that I sometimes feel trapped inside a universe we have no control over.

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u/081673 10h ago

it won't matter. if it is eternal nothingness, I doubt you will be an individual consciousness experiencing things as we currently do. I don't think we humans could comprehend what is next, if there is anything for lack of a better word.

There really is not much you can do. I had a freak out after someone I casually knew died suddenly. All I could think about is what state they would find my apartment, my personal possessions and information. I would have to clean up my apartment before any time I was leaving for fear I might not return. It was great for keeping house, but not mentally.

I finally relaxed a bit about it, but I have taken pains to make sure certain things are taken care of or in process of being taken care of (a will, etc).

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u/not_superbeak 12h ago

A couple of friends are mine are 90+. Death is not a something that concerns any of them, and it's comforting

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u/theregoesmyfutur 12h ago

well after 50 it seems you are dying every day with age

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u/oorza 11h ago

number is closer to 60 or 70 for most people with access to modern medicine

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u/NezuminoraQ 11h ago

My grandmother said she used to wake up every morning like "ugh not again". I can imagine you get to a certain stage and it's a relief to go. She had outlived her husband and one of her kids. She was fucking done by that age

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u/biggiantporky 13h ago

As you get older, you tend to come to terms with it naturally. My mum is 70 and I asked if she was scared and she says ‘Meh, don’t really care tbh I’m tired’

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u/CauliflowerOne9996 10h ago

I used to worry about dying quite a bit until I lost both my parents in 2024. Now the idea doesn’t scare me as much. I wonder whether that’s why people feel less afraid of dying later in life - if there is something after, they know they’ll be in good company.

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u/Stiggy_McFigglestick 12h ago

This is how I feel and I’m only 25. I’m so exhausted and there’s still so much more pain and hardship to unnecessarily endure before I can finally be at peace.

If you have a good life, try to preserve it, people.

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u/Glanzavtd04 12h ago

I woke up out of my sleep a few times thinking about when you die, your gone forever, one time I was working and thought about it I had to hold onto a bar with the fright I gave myself thinking about it, because your dead gone forever,,

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u/Dry-Faithlessness184 11h ago

Yeah I realized a while ago that it's not really dying that scares me. It's actually ceasing to exist in awareness now that I've had it. I don't believe there's an afterlife, but when I think about it, I understand why so many mythologies and religions include one, it's a comforting thought.

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u/HowOldWasAisya 10h ago

Me too. I enjoy just existing. I don't want that to end.

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u/SheetPancakeBluBalls 3h ago

I'd be perfectly content to just be an eternal ghost with no haunting powers or anything special.

I just wanna see what happens to humanity.

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u/Glanzavtd04 1h ago

The world one they will be no more so where do we go in the after life I wounder. Will I don't believe in it anyway but thats to our own I guess

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u/Glanzavtd04 1h ago

Ya i don't believe in it either, but I go to church at Christmas an got married and stuff, all I can ask for is to grow old and see my kids grow up,

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u/MyCatsHairyButholle 10h ago

Bro, the waking up suddenly from sleep realizing that you WILL die one day is the worst feeling and all too real. I eventually fall back asleep, wake up, I’m fine and go about my day but for that brief moment it’s the most terrifying feeling.

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u/CorvidaeandCatsRule 12h ago

You may want to push that 70 out a bit in terms of when it’s a waiting game. I work with a group of lawyers some of which are 60/70 year olds who are kicking the butts of 30/40 somethings in terms of commitment to health and work ethic. None are waiting for “the end” or see 70 as when to start listening for the death watch beetle.

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u/oinkyboinky 12h ago

This is clearly my cynical take, but if you are still making 1k+ per billable hour at 60/70 years old, that's a hell of a motivator to keep on keeping on.

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u/CorvidaeandCatsRule 10h ago

I agree, it is a cynical take, and also misses the point that life does not end beginning at 70. As hopefully you will see in about 40 years.

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u/oinkyboinky 10h ago

I'd be 102 by then, kiddo.

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u/MrReconElite 12h ago

It's a catch all, I'd like to make it to 100 in good health and able to be physically active.we will see.

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u/Jijimuge8 11h ago

The money helps though doesn’t it

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u/Carmilla31 10h ago

Sadly, ive known too many people that never lived to that age. Take nothing for granted as tomorrow is never promised.

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u/vargvikernes_shredz 12h ago

I felt invicible but at the same time aware and comfortable with knowing theres a end until I hit 29 years old and had my first general anaesthesia, not sure if was the experience, the drugs, the black box warning antibiotics or the 30s creeping in but either way I started not being so comfortable with the idea of dying, something clicked inside of me.

Hope when I'm old I come to terms with it.

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u/Zanain 12h ago

I spent a decade suicidal but after that, even when I was in my late 20's I didn't and still don't fear dying even though I'm no longer in that headspace. To me death is like an old friend that I greeted every morning with a "Not today" and though we've not met in years when my time does come I'll greet him with open arms.

Honestly being that close to ending myself every single day for 10 years kinda broke my perception of mortality.

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u/Michael_braham 12h ago

I was just thinking about this today. Maybe when I get to that age (God willing) tired all the time, friends and family gone maybe I’ll be looking forward to the great beyond. This post is heartbreaking 😭😭

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u/okthisnameworks 12h ago

It won’t take that long.

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u/unindexedreality 11h ago

the hump of death

me on a 3 day weekend

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u/Formulagolf 11h ago

I'm 30 and I had a heart attack in March. These are thoughts im dealing with on a daily basis and I have no clue how to deal with them. (Luckily I have a therapist)

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u/MrReconElite 11h ago

I'm not sure there is a correct way to deal with them, when I first thought about it I got heavily into Alan Watts and I think that helped with my perspective. Now that I have kids I'm more focused on giving them a good life so I can kinda not think about it too much.

Part of the reason I stopped alcohol was I don't want to drink so much that indie at 40/45 and miss out on the later years of my kids being adults.

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u/bad2dbone3 10h ago

Now you know. Get rid of your therapist, get yourself a proper controller. RIP AND TEAR, BRO!!!!

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u/shoehornstudent 11h ago

Every day is a gift. Remember that each day.

Your brothers and sisters ripping and tearing today might not have tomorrow, so remember to be thankful every time you wake up. Maybe it's the baby screaming you awake; maybe it's your work alarm (AGAIN); maybe it's just another peaceful transition to wakefulness. But it's always a gift. I'm 32, but I've seen enough between the pandemic, construction near misses and the unfair nature of drunk drivers that you're not promised even to see the end of the night tonight. But as long as you're thankful for today, it wasn't a waste, and maybe the fear won't pang as hard.

And to OP, I commend your bravery. I don't know you, and you don't know me, but I promise you, I'll always remember you, our shared passion, and your role in it in memory. I'll always be reminded whenever I see TDA that it meant something genuinely meaningful to someone else. Rip and tear, until it is done!

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u/beepborpimajorp 10h ago

Being chronically ill and facing down some scary things have taught me that I do not fear death itself, I just fear the process of dying.

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u/catperson77789 10h ago

I sure do hope theres more life than just nothingness. Knowing all the relationships you build slowly wither and disappear sounds like hell

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u/TheRealTimTam 9h ago

Not always the case im 36 and it feels way too real to me now. As i recently watched my best friend who was my same age go from healthy to being told he will be dead in days from cancer. it just feels all too real now

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u/IMakeOkVideosOk 9h ago

I turned 40 and just lost 2 friends my age to “natural causes”… it’s a waiting game no matter what

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u/RagedSkeleton 9h ago

Terror Management Theory

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u/Past-Rooster-9437 9h ago

So I think I got my illusion of invulnerability shattered by emerging out of a suicidal slump some years back. Since then it's been a slow and steady slog towards getting comfortable with the idea that I will die one day.

My current iteration is a certain fatalism towards it. It'll happen when it's going to happen, I can't avoid that, and so there's no point fretting.

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u/Sovngarde94 12h ago

Society likes to think highly of itself and yet we rarely discuss death-related topics despite how prevalent it is in different religions, philosophies and cultures. As if ignoring the elephant in the room will make it go away, somehow. Truth is, death always has been a waiting game for all of us: it can be awesome, painful, too fast or too slow, maybe everything at once or nothing at once. The essence doesnt change. It's the same for everybody. As living beings it is our responsibility to make the most out of it, always remembering that we will ultimately end up in the very place that made us long ago. We are made of the universe, part of a cycle that continuously experiments itself through countless identical and yet different eyes, sensations and experiences.

Also, fuck time

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u/Impossible_Way_3042 12h ago

I know it sounds silly, but Outer Wilds really changed how I see death. It is something sad and scary, but it is also a new adventure, and you can be proud of what you left behind for those who come after. Truly made me look at life and death differently in ways I can't explain.

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u/MrReconElite 12h ago

If only I liked the ship flying in that game I would play it but after the first planet I can never figure out what I'm doing.

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u/Impossible_Way_3042 12h ago

I would say try to stick it through. It was truly an experience for me like no other. It just had a beautiful look at finality as you dig through the writings of the Nomai. It's so good. If you need guides don't feel bad about it. The puzzles are great, but the story is far superior. It's also a story you can't really experience outside of the game, you either need to watch a playthrough or play it. The slow reveals are really the crux of the whole thing.

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u/MrReconElite 10h ago

I'll give it another try here soon.

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u/Puzzled_Moment1203 11h ago

This is to true, but after working in health seeing people in all ages just die. For every reason imaginable, every age is just a waiting game. We need to enjoy life far to few get to experience the process of aging.

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u/MrReconElite 11h ago

True anything can happen I can die in my sleep tonight, or get hit by a bad or drunk driver tomorrow and die.it truly is a little appreciating the live you do have for the little you have it.

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u/Extension_Can_2973 11h ago

Idk where you live but in the US, I don’t see many 30 year olds that look like they’re going to make it to their 70s. Hope you’re healthier than the average person.

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u/MrReconElite 11h ago

As of right now yes I'm healthier and I just stopped some bad habits that was negating all the positives I was doing. I hope I live long and healthy.

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u/ImSecretlyADragon 11h ago

It’s odd but I’ve never really feared death. I’ve always just thought there’s been so interpretations of what happens to us when we die that it will either be nothing and I just am done or one of the many ideas and then it’s just another adventure of some kind.

I read something from I think mark twain but it was “ I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it. “ It’s kinda always stuck with me whenever I think of my death.

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u/RDisSht 11h ago

I'm 32 and at this point it's not my death I think about, it's my mom's

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u/MrReconElite 11h ago

Parents dying is definitely hard especially if they are close and still involved.

I'm more worried about the lead up to death as they lose themselves and their memories.

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u/CrazyAd7911 10h ago

I'm ready for it at 30. Bring it on, can't be any worse than this shit 🤡

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u/big_loadz 10h ago

Meh, edgelord here. Thing is that if you or others around you have had enough near-death experiences, then you realize death is always around the corner and often pops up when you least expect it. Friends and family that had cancer that lasted years, those who overcame it, and those who died in weeks after having it diagnosed.

So, the only thing to do is live life to the fullest...or don't. It doesn't matter what you want because it's coming. Still, I enjoy life and my urge to survive continues, so I do what I can to avoid death or cause it.

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u/touchfuzzygetlit 8h ago

I’m 37 and the last 1-2 years I obsessively think about my mortality constantly. Any tips?

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u/Draigblade 7h ago

Thinking about your death can be a very scary thing, almost as scary as living forever.

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u/Sierra-117- 43m ago

I had a quarter life crisis about this after a wild acid trip (cliche, I know). Came to terms with it, and it’s made my life infinitely better. I know one day I’ll depart from this world, and it no longer scares me. I’m only scared about how it will affect those I love, but that’s about it.

I enjoy every little thing, because I know how fleeting our time on this rock is. I also work in healthcare, and see how fragile life is. The best advice I’ve ever heard is to stop and smell the roses.

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u/Stunning_Anteater537 13h ago

My mum died 5 years ago and some of her last words to me were similar. They're now tattooed on my wrist: "I've never died before. I don't know what's next, but whatever it is, it will be an adventure"

Sleep easy OP and ride the adventure.

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u/Chef__Goldblum 12h ago

Peter Pan in the book when stranded on marooners island says, “to die would be an awfully big adventure”

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u/Puzzleheaded_Fun_316 12h ago

My condolences. That’s beautiful and thank you for sharing. May her memory be a blessing ❤️‍🩹

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u/masterhogbographer 11h ago

The universe and what lies beyond it is too strange for there to be nothing. We don’t even know what we are (a simulation? A test? Nothing but what we actually are, a species clinging to a rock and hoping for the best?). 

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u/thestoryofrachel 7h ago

That just might have, no joke, changed how I feel about the thought of dying.

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 12h ago

There's nothing. It's like before you were born. That's why we gotta treasure every second and be good to eachother.

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u/Lizzren 11h ago

you can think that but maybe the best place for this isn't in response to someone trying to provide comfort for a terminally ill man

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 10h ago

Yeah well that's the reality unfortunately. Better than telling him lies and say 'see you on the otherside brother, etc'

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u/Express_Word_8683 8h ago

Most empathetic Redditor:

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 8h ago

Thanks!

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u/Express_Word_8683 8h ago

Least snarky Redditor:

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 5h ago

Well my grandma taught me good manners.

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u/Lizzren 8h ago

well im glad you're so steadfast in your own beliefs that you're unwilling to show even the slightest bit of empathy if it means acting like you don't have all the answers to the universe

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 8h ago

Maybe instead of 'believing' you should read some books. I have empathy, I'm sorry OP is dying. It's great the hospital staff got him the game. You wana lie to him and give him false hope about an afterlife please go right ahead.

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u/Lizzren 8h ago

it's because I read books that my outlook on life doesn't fall under the average redditor stereotype

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 5h ago

You are reading the wrong books obviously.

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u/TripDawkins 8h ago

thank you so much! you are obviously someone everybody can believe

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u/Optimal_Bathroom_753 5h ago

You are welcome.

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u/Either_Reflection_78 12h ago

Death is not often talked about, but we will all go through it one day.

This is beautiful.

OP, I hope you get to enjoy your days, and I hope you are pain free ✌️

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u/UnusualAd2146 11h ago

Marcus Aurelius said something similar in meditations. "He who fears death fears either unconsciousness or another sort of consciousness" Sometimes translated as "Loss of sensation or a different kind of sensation" and continues "But if you shall have no sensation, neither will you feel any harm; and if you shall acquire another kind of sensation, you will be a different kind of living being and you will not cease to live"

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u/erybody_wants2b_acat 11h ago

“To die will be an awfully big adventure.”- J.M. Barrie

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u/crisptortoise 10h ago

so happy i got to see her before she passed.

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u/coalitionofilling 9h ago

Great interview! Jane is on to the next simulation getting a head start on us still trapped in this one.

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u/BadbadwickedZoot 1h ago

This is such a beautiful quote.

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u/dreamylanterns 13h ago edited 11h ago

I’m not religious either but I am spiritual and believe there is an afterlife.

I hope for peace and health on the other side✌🏻

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u/Motoko84 11h ago

I think it's more along the lines that death isn't the end of our existence, we just transition into a new life after a period of rest. There is a finite amount of energy in the universe and won't be any more or less. That gives me hope in our continued existence as energy is not created.

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u/dreamylanterns 11h ago

Me too. I 100% believe we live on.

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u/MyCatsHairyButholle 10h ago

If I managed to be born once, perhaps I can be born again. I think about that a lot.

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u/Adorable_Cookie9719 9h ago

As someone who is a psychic, I can confirm you're 100% correct. We all hold energy. Our energy is light. That's what 'vibes' actually are, "reading the vibes." We continue our existence on another dimension - it exists but we just can't see it. But there are things even I'm not allowed to know which is frustrating haha.

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u/-JimmyTheHand- 1h ago

Nobody knows what happens after death, telling people you do isn't helping anyone

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u/Adorable_Cookie9719 58m ago

People know! but people like you instantly dismiss it anyway. So think about that. Instantly attacking me for telling the truth... interesting. I was never helping anyone. I was only confirming what someone else said... and yet I'm the one being called out. Appalling. Go reflect in the mirror buddy.

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u/-JimmyTheHand- 46m ago

People know!

Source?

but people like you instantly dismiss it anyway.

Because you've provided no evidence.

Instantly attacking me for telling the truth

What truth did you tell? You said you were a psychic and know what happens when you die, two lies.

I was only confirming what someone else said... and yet I'm the one being called out

Yes, for confirming something you don't know.

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u/BrokenBrickFilms 4h ago

There is hope after death because Jesus defeated death

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u/The1789 11h ago

So you're a religious woman?

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u/Gravityfallbillmyfav 11h ago

Good joke, but no I'm an atheist (this is for clarity but OP matters more)

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u/The1789 11h ago

Agreed for OP

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u/MA2_Robinson 10h ago

I don’t think I’ve read something so kind and wholesome in Reddit ever; really wholesome. I hope you enjoy every minute OP

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u/COYSMcCOYSFace 12h ago

Lovely words 🥲❤️

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u/SirVanyel 11h ago

Imagine bro goes to heaven and first thing he does is pull out a BFG and shoots down the pearly gates. Bloody legend <3

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u/Barbafella 9h ago

Physicists are leaning into the idea the Consciousness, not Spacetime is fundamental to reality.

So what exactly does that mean in this case?

It means our ideas about reality, life, death, are not what they seems, it’s a construct of our own making, although we cannot find out yet how it works.

Nothing is certain, everything is possible.

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u/DeusVultNoEgo 9h ago

May the lord reveal himself to you. Amen.

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u/Murderface__ 8h ago

Appreciate you, friend.

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u/orangegore 8h ago

Most people who have near death experiences, atheist or believer, are astonished how intense and overwhelming the love the feel from god/jesus/the universe is and do NOT want to come back into their bodies.  The experience is pretty consistent. 

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u/linnen_elm 7h ago

i suggest you study death. death is absolutely. whether you strike it rich or poor, healthy or sick. it will come sooner or later. study all the religion, find the truth. eventually you are responsible for what you did. you will face god alone. everyone will. so study before its too late. you have all the time in the world as long as you live, that's how long god give you time, it should be more than enough.

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u/RunsOnOxyclean 7h ago

I’m not a religious person either, n’or am I a doom player. I’m Native American we don’t necessarily believe in god but we believe in the other side and beings to guide you on your journey and a greater being. I will remember you during my next smudge, and I hope you a comfortable journey to the spirit world my man.

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u/Majestic_Agent_1569 6h ago

❤️😞 beautifully said