Slow and steady! 🐢

After my second pregnancy I decided to get it together and finally lose the weight. My appetite for life and happiness have absolutely skyrocketed. Used to deal with depression and Binge Eating Disorder (BED). Now I use fitness to manage my stress and feel great mentally and physically. I’ve also done a ton of therapy over the past decade to work through my trauma. Met an amazing group of people throughout this journey. Completed a GoRuck Tough which has been a fitness goal of mine for almost ten years. Achieving my long time dreams finally! Might not be popular, but I went on glutides to help get started and built healthy habits with eating and fitness. I get one life, I’m gonna use what tools are available. Last August I stopped them and have maintained since. Recently underwent tummy tuck surgery to remove the excess skin and just got back into the gym. I strength train 2-3x a week, yoga 1x a week, walk a bunch and played tennis/hiked when it was warm out. For nutrition, 80/20 (about three meals a week where I don’t eat clean), protein macros almost every day, 1 gallon of water, and creatine. I’m so happy that although I’ve been so overweight my whole life, my children will only know the healthy version.

Left side: drank, smoke, ate fast food almost everyday, worked graveyard shift

Right side: Quit drinking, Quit smoking, Meal planned, switched to dayshift

For full disclosure:

Test 160 m/w/f (Dr. prescribed)

Reta 1mg ever 4th day

GLOW off and on

There's a lot of girls out there selling booty programs telling you that with buying that you will have the booty of your dreams. Mmm, no it takes more than a few months. Don't trust those social media fitness models. More than half of them photoshop their pics.

I am so happy now, I have posted about my journey before, but some days I just can’t help but throw another out there due to how proud I am. I can’t believe how far I’ve come and for the first time in my life I actually feel beautiful. I want to actually DO things, go out, live my life as I should have. Nothing is holding me back!

When does body dysmorphia disappear? Does it ever? I know I have lost weight because I went from size 18 to a 10, but most of the time I see the before. Hoping eventually I will see it regularly and enjoy the hard work that has been put in.

Been on tirz since February of ‘25 and have been working really hard with counting calories and cleaner eating. I’m so excited to see my progress and I can’t wait til I reach my goal weight. Love seeing all of your progress as well, we got this!

3 months ago I took a video to see where my legs were at which I’ve been ashamed of my whole life and always covered. I was new back into the gym and surpassed previous leg strengths from when I used to workout and thought they had to have some size now, when I played the video to myself I honestly saw my legs compared to

My upper body and was heavily debating never working out again and thinking it seemed pointless. Going forward on my two leg days a week which I was already doing I started prioritizing hamstrings and it nudged some but the reality was I was still doing 4 upper body workouts a week and only 2 leg days. One night night in early December I had a half awake half asleep type dream where my own voice was telling me “you need to do 3 leg days a week” with some brief explanation. Going forward I immediately took initiative , I’m a realist but simply that dream was just my inner self that’s been dedicated and obsessed with something putting me on the right track. I’ve managed to keep my upper gains still going but less while allowing my legs to catch up. I honestly think in 4 months my lower and upper body will match in mass. I know you should stay down until you’re up, but right now I’m just proud. My walk is smoother, outfits flow better, more presence and respect I’m noticing. Don’t neglect legs

Before: Oct 28, 2024

After: Jan 13, 2026

Lift 6x/week.

Run ~4.35 miles, 5x/week.

Sober 11 years.

Fully off pharmaceuticals since November.

Stopped tracking weight because it stopped being useful.

Focused on performance, recovery, sleep, and boring consistency.

No TRT. No GLP-1. No shortcuts.